Angel With No Wings...!

She is special, She is one of a kind..She is so sane and like her none other you can find! She asks you to do chores…worries about your studies…she ain’t afraid to kiss you in public…she loves you more than anything…she will never leave you, even if you do...She will argue with you for your own good…for you she learns to make world’s best ever food! It hurts her when you disrespect her, but against you she will never utter a word! She is sent by God, just for you! She is a beautiful song which no one sings, yes. She is your mother…AN ANGEL WITH NO WINGS.

  “Jason! Here’s your lunch box. Be quick! We can’t afford to miss the school bus today! Don’t forget your sports shoes or else you will be punished again..Hurry up darling!” she said with a worried grin. “Don’t worry mom! I know my stuff right!” said little Jason proudly.”Oh honey, you’re wearing opposite shoes in your legs…” Laughed Jason’s mom Lauren. With a red embarrassed face, Jason left the house and went to the school. Lauren watched her little 9 year old while sitting on the chair outside the house. She wondered how her little son was growing up so fast and how time had passed so quickly!

  Lauren was doing amazing as a single mom. Jason’s father had left them after he was born. Since then, she never looked back. It had been 9 long years. She tried her best to complete the absence of his father in his life. She supported the house all by herself. Her only reason to live was Jason! Her life was a struggle, she worked day in and out to accumulate money for Jason’s higher studies. It was not at all easy. Her whole life encircled around her little sweetheart.

  Jason was growing up fast, his requirements were increasing, his behavior was changing and gradually, his mother whom he loved so much, now seemed like a torture. Five to seven years had passed…They now had issues at home. Lauren was tired, arguing with him everyday! She missed how things were between her and Jason when he was a kid. Now her sweet little kid had turned into an ignorant teen. He used to return home late, stay in his room for hours, started to have an overexposure to the internet world..and everything! All this used to worry Lauren. The home which used to echo with their laughs and giggles had turned into a house with permanent silence. Lauren cried every night. She didn’t know how to deal with him anymore. Things changed so quickly! Everything Lauren did was unliked by Jason. The food she made was left uneaten almost everyday. Lauren wondered what went wrong suddenly. It used to kill her how her only ray of hope in life was turning dark. Every evening Jason used to leave the house and return late at night…But, one day he didn’t! Lauren was scared, she didn’t know what to do. Thoughts of losing him were terrifying her! She had no close friends or relatives to get help from. Jason’s phone was unreachable. She went upstairs in his room and found a letter which read-

 ‘Mom,                                                                                                         

I’m tired of the daily drama I’ve to deal with at home. You still treat me like a 9 year old! I’m not your baby anymore. It’s high time that you realize that! Now I’m big enough to live on my own. This may seem harsh but I don’t need you anymore. I’ll be okay wherever I go. I have money with me and I’m sorry but I don’t feel sorry for what I’m doing. Stop calling me if you love me even a bit! Bye & take care.

                                                                                                               -Jason'

  She fell on her knees after reading that. She press the letter near to her chest and tears rolled down her cheeks. Jason had left the house and his room was empty! Lauren couldn’t take it. She felt hopeless! She was broke.

  She had actually stopped living! She just went to work everyday. She tried to find Jason but sadly, she couldn’t! Maybe he was lost, maybe he purposely hid himself. She just hoped he was okay…She didn’t stop believing though. On his every birthday and on every Christmas eve, she used to buy presents for him. They lied unwrapped in his room for months…for years..

  Time had passed. Each day without Jason was like a year for her. Jason had become a man. He worked in a bank and earned good money. He was gonna get married in half a year. He never tried to find about his mother, but he had started to feel guilty about what he had done years ago. He realized he wouldn’t have been so big if his mom wouldn’t have been there…His guilt was increasing day by day. Finally, one day he decided to go home. To get along with his mother…to mend the things..to make everything good again. The thoughts of facing his mom again bought chills within him. 

   Jason reached the house and rang the bell…there was no response. Suddenly he noticed a lock on the door and there was a board on the other side of the house saying ‘House on sale’

Jason was confused. He had no idea about what was going on. He immediately called the number which was displayed on that board. “This is Jason Thompson, where is the owner of this house…Lauren...Lauren Thompson. May I know?” asked Jason. “Hello Jason. I’m Mr. Frank, House dealer of your mom. I need to tell you something. I’ll come to your place with the house keys.” Said the man with a hard voice.  Jason stood there waiting clueless for one hour. Mr. Frank arrived. They shook hands and he opened the door. Jason’s eyes were watery when he entered the house. He could see the images in his head of little him playing and running around the whole house and his mom running behind him…and laughing cheerfully calling his name…  Suddenly he asked, “What happened Mr. Frank? Where’s my mom?”  Mr. Frank looked down and said, “I don’t know if I’m the right person to say this to you. But, I’m sorry, your mother passed away a week ago… She had cancer and it was found very late. So late, that she couldn’t be saved Jason. I’m her friend and also her house dealer. She remembered you even in her last breaths… I don’t know what to say more… I think I need to leave. Take care.”  Jason couldn’t believe his ears!! He was devastated! He cried, he banged his fist against the wall. He felt helpless! The pain was unbearable, he couldn’t control himself as he fell on the floor. He lost his mom forever!  He couldn’t forgive himself. He had never felt so guilty about anything ever! Leaving his mom all alone and not being with her in her struggle for life…became his biggest regret! He went to his room and found that the whole room was filled with presents, all addressed with his name. Some for his birthday. Some for Christmas. He opened each present with tears and he could literally feel the pain in his heart! At the end he found a letter. It read-

  ‘Dearest Jason,

I know one day you’ll be reading this. Your condition while reading this letter would be the same as mine when I read that letter which was the only thing you left me with… and of course innumerable memories! My son, you can’t even imagine how I’ve survived all these years without you. I feel bad that I couldn’t be good enough for you. You’d be reading this only because you felt guilty for leaving me and you realized your mistake. I guess it’s too late now… But I want you to forgive yourself now. I want you to be happy forever and always! I wish you to be a happy person, a successful man, a loving husband and for sure a wonderful father. Take care sweetheart. Love you so much… always…! 

                                                                                         -Lauren. ‘

Jason took the letter and all the presents with him and left. He continued to live his life like his mother said. But, his mother’s death poisoned his heart forever. That guilt couldn’t just go away. 

   Sometimes we unknowingly hurt her, argue with her, fight with her, say something disrespectful or ignore her. Just take a while and remember everything she has done for you till now…The list will be endless. Many people will get tired of you and give up on you, But, your mother never will!  She loves you unconditionally for who you are,  and for her, you are the most awesome kid in the world! She might get loud, troublesome and sometimes violent too, but only because she cares for you! She has problems and worries too, but she will never throw them up on you. Never let any fight between you both get so intense that she begins to keep quiet. If her words irritate you, then her silence will kill you…and her ignorance will break you… Don’t forget that. She loved and cared for you when you were growing in her womb and she cares for you even now! Jason was too late for his mother, to make up for the fight. To make things better, and to mend their relationship make sure you never will be. Your mother is the best friend you can ever have, she will always be by your side unless you decide to leave her. Remember that she is growing older too! Now you are her responsibility and one day she will be yours. One day when you will be old… the biggest factor which you will miss from your past won’t be any stupid party or hard rock concert or video games or anything that sorta… You will miss her the most! You will miss her scoldings, her smile, her advices, her care and the time which you spent with her… Because she is a beautiful song which no one sings…She is your mother…Yes. AN ANGEL WITH NO WINGS…

                                                                                                                                                                    -Shivani